crazy-drunk conundrum
thanks to Sylvia,
i can’t even utter
the word “daddy,”
though
God knows i want to—
because he
is the sweetest
kind of crazy,
claiming whiskey makes
a better wife than me,
settling
the score, between us,
on paper,
having fucked
empty the glow of our souls’
well-intentioned
affection,
my heart, swollen,
a bell jar infection,
vows
never to mention
his name in poetry,
yet, nevertheless,
burns thin the oxygen
to love him,
in silence,
for the rest of his drunken days.
Biography
Eliana Vanessa is originally from Argentina and moved to New Orleans, Louisiana at a young age. She recently participated 100,000 Poets for Change (2018) and served as part of a panel of poets in The Jane Austen Festival (2017, 2018, 2019). You can find her work online at The Horror Zine, The Rye Whiskey Review, and The Sirens Call Ezine, The Ramingo’s Porch, Ariel Chart, Beneath the Rainbow, and Fearless. Her poetry appears in two recent anthologies: Masks Still Aren’t Enough (2019) and Americans and Others (2019). She is Eliana Vanessa on Facebook at the following link: https://www.facebook.com/eliana.vanessa.7758.