crazy-drunk conundrum

 

thanks to Sylvia,

i can’t even utter

the word “daddy,”

though

God knows i want to—

because he

is the sweetest

kind of crazy,

claiming whiskey makes

a better wife than me,

settling

the score, between us,

on paper,

having fucked

empty the glow of our souls’

well-intentioned

affection,

my heart, swollen,

a bell jar infection,

vows

never to mention

his name in poetry,

yet, nevertheless,

burns thin the oxygen

to love him,

in silence,

for the rest of his drunken days.

 

Biography

     Eliana Vanessa is originally from Argentina and moved to New Orleans, Louisiana at a young age. She recently participated 100,000 Poets for Change (2018) and served as part of a panel of poets in The Jane Austen Festival (2017, 2018, 2019).   You can find her work online at The Horror Zine, The Rye Whiskey Review, and The Sirens Call Ezine, The Ramingo’s Porch, Ariel Chart, Beneath the Rainbow, and Fearless. Her poetry appears in two recent anthologies: Masks Still Aren’t Enough (2019) and Americans and Others (2019). She is Eliana Vanessa on Facebook at the following link: https://www.facebook.com/eliana.vanessa.7758.