5 poems by Wayne Jermin

Poetry, Punk Noir Magazine

Hoarder.

I suppose you could say I’m a hoarder.

It’s not something I’m proud of

but it’s the only coping mechanism 

that works for me.

A release from pain and reality

all in one simple slice 

on the inside of my thigh

I have quite the collection now.


Honey, I’m home!

That gut wrenching moment 

Like a twisted dagger in my side

I walked through the bedroom door

My whole body is ravished immediately with rage

And I just lost it.

Out of control and out of my mind.

Not thinking or bothered by the consequences.

I pour myself a double vodka 

Light a cigarette 

And leave the mess for someone else to clean up.


The Gravel Path.

Leading you down the gravel path

At 2 o’clock in the morning

Knowing that it’s the last walk you’ll ever take

Fills me with a sense of rapture.

All the pain and suffering endured

By your drunken antics over the years

Has brought us here. 

Your fake tears and phony apologies 

Mean nothing at this point

I’m old enough now to see through them.

The shallow grave I’m about to leave you in

Is the perfect resting place

For such a beast

And the satisfaction of pulling this trigger

Will not only be euphoric 

But also alleviating. 


                                                                            Coattails.

Sat in the kitchen at four in the morning

Music at a mundane lull

My bag is almost empty 

And I’ve got a bottle of vodka to finish.

This class A cocktail isn’t a good idea

While I’m dancing alone in a self loathing house party

Surrounded by ghosts and self-pity.

Sunrise is fast approaching 

I squint through the crippled blinds 

In awe of what the daylight carries 

A burst of violet and orange skies

Makes the all nighter worth it

To see the morning break

With its coattails on fire. 


But….

I was going to exercise today but my mental health said no!

I was going to go to work today but my mental health said no!

I was going to eat something today but my mental health said no!

I was going to talk to someone today but my mental health said no!

I was going to get out of bed today but my mental health said no!

I was going to get dressed today but my mental health said no! 

I was going to listen to music today but my mental health said no! 

I was going to walk the dog today but my mental health said no! 

I was going to write about my mental health today but couldn’t find the words!